In too deep…The struggles of a fandom girl

I’ve always been a very musically influenced person. Music motivates me and also has a strong link to my emotions. SUPER strong. For me, a song can go from “Mehhh” to “OMG, that’s my jam!”, if it’s catchy and even more so if it has also dope MV. I also like to ‘cross the border’ and listen to songs in different languages from other countries. For those, even if I only have a rough translation of the lyrics, it goes back to the foundation. The music, the beats, the tempo and the voice of the artist(s).

To my current knowledge, only one of my friends is into k pop. I  just recently found that out around March. So basically, when I first started listening to k pop, there was no one to warn me of the implications. I know how silly that may sound but really, once you start to bias one particular k pop group, that’s it. Even worse if you also bias one of the members of your bias group. If this applies to you, you might as well stop reading this right now, get a suitcase, book a flight and move to South Korea because that is the only way to BARELY survive being in a fandom. I say barely because I’m sure the fandom struggles over there are like mine TIMES one million. I think about packing up and moving there at least three times a month. Twice a month because I really do want to live in either Japan or South Korea. Once a month because BTS nearly drives me to the edge of my sanity by doing something that they DO.

When my friend first introduced me to BTS aka Bangtan Boys, my first reaction was “They’re too young!” Now, when I look back, I laugh at myself. I’ve come a LONG way in a VERY short time.

BTS is my complete package. Their looks are killer. Every.Single.One.Of.Them. With or without performance/photo shoot make up. They can sing, dance, rap, model, make me laugh and make me cry. Everything. I knew my ass was REALLY in trouble when I started to bias one of the members. Now, my life is pretty much over. Seriously. I wish I was making this stuff up.

I’ve never invested so much time, money or emotion into a group before and it’s only getting worse as time goes on. Everything they do, I want to see. Everything they sell, I want to buy. Every song they release, I want to hear. Even their pre-debut music, which BTS has a lot of and the quality is as high as their debut albums.

I have three active blogs that I currently manage, as some of you may know. My Daum is more of a stop over blog, so that I’ll get a wider audience range. It is a struggle, especially over the last three to four months, to keep their content balanced. When I started them, it was easier. Now, BTS is slowly taking over. HOWEVER, I will continue to try to keep them in check for the sake of my readers. I promise! ^^

I am currently on the second to last step on my fandom girl struggles, making friends with other members of the BTS fandom online.

The last step will be when I go to Korea in a few months and can actually attend a BTS fan sign and/or performance.  OMG. I get the shivers just thinking about it.

I am definitely in too deep.

The fandom girl struggle is REAL.

Someone, please send help…

While you are waiting for me to upload pics of the men in the white coats taking me away, check out my BTSing post. ~ _ ~



I’m your Noona – 나는 당신의 누나 – Bias List

The younger guys on my Bias List were ‘beating up’ the older guys ~ _ ~ and in all fairness to both groups, I decided to create 2 different lists with a maximum of 5 guys on each list.

The names of my new Bias Lists are “I’m your Noona” and “You’re my Oppa“.

The “You’re my Oppa” list will be released later. Kekeke

I had to REALLY think long and hard about who I wanted added to this list, why I was adding them and if I really thought they could beat out ALL of the others. However, truthfully speaking, only the first 3 spots are held in stone.

My lists are based on ranking 1 being “I HAVE TO see his face every day so I check all my social media to see his latest info/pics” and 5 being “I like seeing him in shows etc. but I don’t look for his latest news on the web”.

I will list their real names (Wiki), stage names (if any) and where I first saw them.

Here we go!!!

I’m your Noona – 나는 당신의 누나 – BIAS LIST

1. Jung Ho Seok aka J Hope (BTS)

2. Kwon Ji Yong aka G Dragon (Big Bang – Tonight)

3.  Jung Il Woo (Flower Boy Ramyun Shop)

4. Park Min Woo (Flower Boy Ramyun Shop)

5. Lee Min Ki (Shut Up Flower Boy Band)

What are the real ‘Oppa’ rules?

My friend and I were chatting today about my Bias list (currently only has 5 guys) and the possibility of my having to change it into two separate lists:

  1. I’m your Noona Bias List

  2. You’re my Oppa Bias List

Which brought back up the Oppa question.

Not that I plan on running around Korea and calling every guy older than me Oppa but since it is fully integrated into Korean culture, it is something that I am curious about.

I got the older brother, older male friend and boyfriend part. It’s the age part that kills me every time. With the US age and the Korean age not being the same, if you want to address someone as your Oppa, which age is the correct age to follow?

For example: If a guy was born in Korea in November 1977, he would be 36 in the US but 38 in Korea. He would turn 39 in Korea, not in November but in January.

So for a woman born in the US in November 1977, can she call him Oppa?

Based on US age he is not her Oppa but in Korean age he is.

*Please note that I was not born in November 1977 and am not using my age as this example. Kekekeke  ~ _ ~

I can’t resist anymore…

I tried and I tried to keep him as far away from my Bias list as possible.

I felt like once I added him, he would take over and indeed it’s already started.

He’s jumping right in at #2.  -_-

On the other hand Kim Woo Bin gets another boost and moves up from #4 to #3.

Jung Ho Seok aka J Hope is still at #1….Of course.  ~_~

My Oppas So Ji Sub and Gong Yoo are going to have to make do with the #4 and #5 spots.

So who is my new #2 that is causing all this havoc to my Bias list???

He shares my zodiac sign (Leo), his charisma is off the charts and he’s sooooo dope in EVERYTHING he does.


It’s none other than Kwon Ji Yong aka G Dragon (GD).

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So Ji Sub – 18 Years Feat. Saetbyul – Official MV

Can we talk about this???

I am SO blown away right now.

Many of you who read my posts know that  So Ji Sub Oppa (hee hee @ Oppa) is on my Top 5 Bias List.

I knew he was coming out with an album and I have to admit, I was pretty skeptical but this song….OMG.

Let’s break this down shall we?

I like to break things down. It slows down the fan girling process and forces me to organize my thoughts. ~ _ ~

  1. The music – There is a hint of reggae in it, which I looooove. The ‘oooooh’ reminds me of Barrington Levy (reggae artist) who tends to sing that in the hook of a lot of his music. The beat itself is sick and very catchy. I’ve already watched the MV 6 times. * _ *

  2. The artist – His voice is hawwwwt. I knew his voice was low but not THAT low. He makes good use of it and it adds depth. I love the fast and slow transitions.

  3. The MV – Not over nor under done. I love his message. You can tell what he’s talking about even without the English translation. He displays that smexy face of his without being ‘model-y’. That side ways smirk of his. OMGawwwd.

  4. Feat. Saetbyul – Her voice adds a nice dimension to the song. Finding an artist that compliments is critical in a song. She adds but doesn’t take away from So Ji Sub’s performance.

Final thoughts –

I need to purchase this song asap.

I need to go to Korea asap.

I need to see So Ji Sub perform asap.

I need to listen to this song again.


Domino’s Pizza….We need to talk!

So….I just found out that Domino’s Pizza has signed my #4 Bias and smexy Korean actor/model Kim Woo Bin as one of their newest brand models.

Ummmmm. Isn’t Domino’s a world wide company?

I ordered delivery from them last week!!! My flyer didn’t have Kim Woo Bin on it. – _ –

In all fairness Domino’s, a commercial here or there or even a couple of random flyers with WooB’s face in the US would be greatly appreciated.

Preferably in Boston, if you had to pick a location. ~ _ ~

For the Noonas who know Kim Woo Bin, it’ll be a huge treat. For the ones who don’t know who he is, we’ll take theirs too.

Plus, we’ll buy more pizza. It’s a win win situation either way!

What do you say Domino’s???  O _ o


My Obsessions Contest – Ends 7/1/14!

Please see my June 12, 2014 post for up to date information.

Contest closes on July 1, 2014!